The Doors of Time (The Doors of Time #1) By Felisblanco
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Fanfiction: Supernatural RPF/CW RPF
Jensen Ackles/Jared Padelecki
It’s not like Jensen doesn’t try to fit in and make friends, he really does. It just seems like nothing he does is good enough for them. If he smiles they blink. If he speaks they stare.
And whenever they see him coming they get this panicked look in their eyes like they want to run away and they don’t even know why. A touching story about love, fate, destiny, and finding the one person that's made for you in a world that isn't.
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N.B. A new edition of the ebook has been uploaded. The chapter headings should no longer be an issue, among other things. -The Fluff
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Re-read October 2020
Still such a lovely book.
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This was one of my first MM books. I’ve been afraid of re-reading this, since not all books of those early MM days live up to my excitement of that time.
And.. I forgot how beautiful this story is.
I know it’s basically fanfiction, but because Jensen and Jared are not really from any show (they don’t resemble their characters from Supernatural at all), I would say this is just a beautiful story and can be read by anyone.
Jensen has always been different. Ever since he was little, he can do certain things.
Not that he really does anything, not on purpose. Like that time he just happened to think, ‘I wish it would stop raining’, because his sneakers were getting wet, and just like that it did. And while everyone else looked up at the sudden blue sky with puzzlement, his mother gave Jensen that tired look that told him he’d done something wrong again, without really meaning to. His parents never really believe that he isn’t responsible for what he’s doing. According to them it’s all a matter of control. But it’s hard to control something he’s not even aware of doing, let alone how he’s doing it. Sometimes he looks up to find leaves twirling around him or a sunbeam following him on a cloudy day and his heart jumps up in his throat, knowing that he’s being bad again.
And because kids at school thinks he’s weird, and because his parents tell him he should control it better, Jensen doesn’t have any friends. He is just so alone.
When puberty hits his powers get out of hand. His parents are about to send him away, ‘for his own good’ when Jensen discovers music. He teaches himself to play the piano and has an outlet for his feelings. When Jensen plays the music comes alive, literally. But Jensen needs to play, to have this outlet for his feelings, for his magic.
So that’s how 13 year old Jared meets 17 year old Jensen. Jared wants piano lessons and Jensen’s parents thought it be good for him to tutor someone, more as a distraction for Jensen than anything else.
But somehow Jared and Jensen really hit it off. Except Jensen can’t help but see Jared as he one day will be. Not the short pudgy 13 year old he is now, but the giant of a man he will become.
Jared is Jensen’s only friend, and together they form a very special bond. But even though Jared is still young, Jensen knows they are soul mates. He sees they will end up together. So his attraction is not to 13 year old Jared, but to the man he will become. Now he is just Jensen’s best friend.
But while Jensen might be magical, his mother thinks it's a curse. She always thought that Jensen should control his powers better. She wants to lock him up in the house and definitely never have him live by himself.
But Jensen has an audition at Julliard and Jared gets him the number of a guy in their town, Chris, who has a band, and who will take Jensen with him to New York.
But when Jensen’s mother cannot control her fear anymore, she says they need to leave immediately. All Jensen knows is that he has to call Jared to say goodbye.
When Jensen calls Jared, he plays music for him, and this time Jared doesn’t close his eyes like Jensen always asks of him. Jared sees an entire magical world, sees music notes dancing in the air. And now it all makes sense. It raining when Jensen is sad, the sudden sunbeams when Jensen is happy. The way he zones out sometimes when he gets stuck in his head.
But then Jensen is gone.
10 years later finds Jensen a teacher at Julliard. He spent two years in a mental institution, being drugged out of his mind. He couldn’t see colors, he couldn’t do magic at all. But after two years he convinced the doctors to let him go. That with his medication and regular checkups he would be fine.
Of course he immediately throws out the drugs and hitchhikes as far away as he can get. When he gets to a payphone he tries to call Jared, but he no longer lives there. Just when Jensen doesn’t know who to call he remembers a phone number of the person he was supposed to hitch a ride with.
And that’s how Jensen ends up living with Chris. Chris who takes care of him, and who accepts his magic.
Everyone in Jensen’s life knows he is waiting for Jared, his one true love. But Jensen has tried to find Jared and never has. So Chris and other people don’t know if it will ever happen.
But when Jensen is at a bar one night after work, he sees Jared. And immediately blows out all the lights because of the shock. He falls and hits his head and Chris has to come and take him to the hospital.
But Jared knows something happened in that bar. And when it suddenly starts snowing, in May, he knows it was Jensen. When Jared asks around at Julliard, they call Chris to tell him Jared made his way to Jensen at last (yes, Jensen even informed the people of Julliard to call him if a tall guy named Jared ever shows up).
When the two reconnect, it feels like magic for both of them. They cannot stay away from each other for even one second. But while it might be love for Jensen, Jared lives in LA and has a girlfriend…..
I cannot express enough how beautiful this book is. This book felt magical. Not just Jensen’s magic, but the way these two were drawn together. They were so miserable without each other. That was amazing. These two were really meant to be together.
Jensen was this sweet, shy, awkward person who would always need a keeper. He couldn’t read a book without literally being sucked in. Or he could zone out for hours in the middle of winter and needed someone to come take him home or he would freeze to death (Chris found him with the GPS of Jensen's phone).
Jared was only 23 and he had no idea what he had to do to fix everything. He felt he couldn’t just drop everything in LA and move to New York. And of course he never once felt he was gay. But he was also very sweet, and wanted to do everything for Jensen, to just be able to be around him.
This book is long, and it takes most of this book for these guys to finally get together. But that wasn't an issue for me at all. This entire story consists of the pull these two feel towards each other. I felt this entire book was just filled with romance, even though they weren't officially a couple for most of it.
I cannot express my love for this book enough. I cannot wait to read it again. ebook 10++++ stars!
OH MY GOD this book was so good. SO GOOD. It was just a beautiful, romantic work of art.
I have never seen Supernatural and so I can't compare the book to the show. To me, it was just an amazing, magical story. I just finished reading Beautiful Bastard, another book that is fan fiction (basically). The Doors of Time makes Beautiful Bastard look like the author of Beautiful Bastard just wrote nngngngn lkjkljjjjj kkokokkk instead of words. The prose of The Doors of Time is so poetic and PERFECT that it makes Beautiful Bastard look like it was written by Forrest Gump. On a bad day. They are WORLDS apart and it just highlights the awesome skills of Felisblanco. This book rises far above the realm of fan-fiction into something much, much greater.
How do I describe this book? It has an innocence about it. There is something so pure and special about this story. The characters are multi-layered and interesting and... I'm just gushing now. Jensen and Jared are two very memorable characters, and I completely fell in love with them.
The 640 pages of the book FLEW by. I read with a single-minded focus and raced through the story like it was a novella instead of an epic novel. This story will stay with me forever. Can you tell that I loved it??? ebook
“Awesome. Dude.”
I promised a sweet if it was good, and you know what?
It deserves the whole store!
Because I’ve found a treasure in this book!
You have no idea how I want a paperback of this!
I’m so happy I read this book!
My dear, you know it is free?
You know I had to pay more than 15 euros for some crappy books?
Please, don’t waste your money or your time, just read this book.
Trust me!
Did I sound arrogant?
Sorry, I’m hexed.
Well, ok, let’s explain why.
Jared senses immediately Jensen is not an ordinary kid.
Jensen is not a normal kid. He is different. He is weird. He is special. He is UNIQUE. And I could genuinely believe it. He was.
Not only words or long explanations, but demonstrations and feelings. I bought it completely. He needs to be cared for and he is, by Jared. Jared feels the need to care for Jensen. I could feel the need to care for Jensen. He inspires a tenderness so sweet I wanted to have my heart broken because it would be less painful. He is deliciously kind, impossibly good and heart-wrenching in a way that makes you want to look for someone like him in this world.
Because if he exists, this world is something worth living. He is the twin soul everybody would want, at least, I would want to find my twin soul and I would want it to be him. And if that twin soul is the love of my life, there is no more I could ask to life.
Reading him was like touching the sun. It felt like a mystical experience.
But Jensen is a misfit. He plays alone or so it seems. Jensen wants to have friends and be happy but he gets the opposite because he is cursed. Children sense something strange in him, so he is left alone. His family is hopeless and makes him see it like a burden and not like a gift.
In those moments I really really REALLY hated his family.
This spurs his way of thinking and feeling about himself, which builds his self-image and it’s not a good one. As a result, apart from being a special kid since birth, he becomes even more isolated.
Until he meets Jared in the teens. And Jensen falls in love. Not with the young Jared, but with this future Jared. All of a sudden, he has hope. He is not alone.
He has young Jared but he will have adult Jared. Platonic love at its best. This world starts shining again.
But outside forces separate them again and again and, consequently, so do their paths.
It is like losing a limb. Or a piece of heart. Or a whole heart.
This is a long tale. We meet the MC very young and we see them grow up during the years. First in separate paths, but when Jared sees Jensen child in the park, the paths are doomed to be full of crossroads and to pass through bad and very hard lands.
I have never seen a episode of Supernatural. Of course, I love Jensen Ackles. He’s my Ty forever and that won’t change. This novel is a fanfic of that series. I have no idea how are the MC supposed to be there. I only know that they are MEANT to be like this here.
This book is magic. Literally speaking. If it says “Jump!”, I’d say “How high?”.
I couldn’t stop thinking about this book when I wasn’t reading it.
I thought about this while punching the air in my kick-boxing class, and even in the voluntary mornings in the hospital (I even read when the doctors weren’t paying attention. Yeah, don’t come to my hospital when I graduate).
This story is special. It left me that warm feeling inside I long for everyday of my life.
I’ve been days submerged in this special story.
Surrounded by water. Drowning in water. Breathing water.
But this water felt like air, necessary to live, to exist. I cling to books like that. I need to look for that feeling, that feeling of experiencing a kind of samsara o nirvana. Maybe this feeling is too fleeting to be real, but I need to look for it in a book. It’s like trying to catch the sea in your hands, with the drops flowing between your fingers. I was awed.
The writing is pure poetry, pure music, pure magic. I was caught since the beginning and I couldn’t think about anything else during this hibernation. Everything else out of the bubble felt off, like it wasn’t meant to be there at all. It was just Jensen, Jared, and me. And the words. This book is a feast for the senses. I could see and smell and hear and taste and touch.
The loneliness, the friendship, the alienation, the fear, the dizziness, the love. I could travel through seas, jungles, mountains, forests and universes riding those sentences.
I could sync with this book. Like becoming part of its landscape.
I felt limitless. “Bodyless”.
It was like looking directly at the sun. It was like flying too close to the sun. It left me blind.
Everything felt in its place. Nothing was innocuous. If there was some detail that felt out of place right then there was no sense flipping out because that piece finds its place later on.
The MC are meant to be together and there is no denying it. It’s like fighting the inevitable. If they exist it is because they are destined to be together, otherwise they would not have been born in the first place.
Their relationship is logical like a mathematic problem, but also it is chaotic and aimless, a series of encounters and failed meetings intertwined in which we know the end because there is no another one possible. The world would not work if if doesn’t resolve like that.
Am I being overly dramatic? Could be, I don’t care.
Just saying... I usually have some kind of argument with myself before giving 5 stars. But it would be shameful to deny them to this story. It's romantic. I liked it.
TOO much. ebook 4.5 stars
A whole lot of wonderful and the guys are awesome, the story went far beyond my expectations (not that I really knew what I was in for). Jensen is amazing and his talents are a magical and exhilarating experience, if at times quite frightening for everyone. Jensen, Jared and Chris are special, great characters and adorable in their own right, who make this such a gripping if somewhat emotionally difficult story. Tears, angst, cuddles, laughter and pure joy all let loose with absolutely no control, I was with them all the way. Immerse yourself in this amazing world of enchantment its a great story of friendship and love. I was sad to see it come to an end, I loved it and I forgot to mention Minna the oddball cute cat lol. ebook A beautifully written free to read book, don't miss this one..
My point is if he's got the frigging sun eating out of his hand he's got as much power as God. You ever read the Bible, Jared? You remember what God did when he got pissed off?
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Epic love story.
Jared and Jensen story with heartbreak, magic, and music. Beautiful and sad and hopeful and despairing and... a long path to get to where they need to be. There are no shortcuts. Sometimes patience is all you have until it seems like it's too long, and you're stretched so thin that you begin to evanesce.
There's tons of allegories here. The music is beautiful, but not so much that if you don't have an affinity to it that it is oppressive or overbearing. Music is Jensen's form of communication and it's powerful. Jensen's always been different. Different can be good, but sometimes different just means lonely and separate.
Jared always seen the truth. The truth about everything but himself. Not understanding what's been there from the beginning.
Anyway, a beautiful love story. It made me sigh and smile and made me wipe a tear or two.
Favorite quote: Felt like he could do anything, go anywhere, as long as he had that hand to hold on to.
ebook This was my first time reading fanfiction, I wasn’t sure what to expect but I was very pleasantly surprised. This was a beautifully written love story that captured my heart right from the beginning.
I fell in love with Jensen right from the start, so many times I just wanted to grab him, hold him in my arms to protect him, my heart ached for him. Jared...what can I say about Jared? He was the sweetest boy a perfect friend for Jensen and more mature than his 13 yrs. I thought I might have some trouble with the friendship between these two because of the age difference, but somehow the author made it work.
Following their 10 year journey was amusing and had me chuckling more than a few times but there was also sorrow that had me reaching for a tissue. It was a wonderful read from start to finish and hard to believe how it all came about.
If you know fanfiction or not it is a book I would recommend.
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Supernatural fanfiction?
Sure, why not?.. :D
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*after reading half*
My body was not ready...
DNF at 50%. Too boring, too long, too everything. The writing was great, but the story lacked the elements to keep me invested. The characters were interesting, but again, the story kept dragging. Ran out of patience. ebook Rating: 4-4.5 stars
Before I begin my (overly long) review, I just want to make apparent that you do not have to be a fan, or have even watched a single episode of Supernatural to read this ebook.
The Doors of Time (DOT) is a story about two boys. You have Jensen, who has magical/supernatural abilities. He can change the weather, project his conscious and unconscious emotions onto others, freeze time, conjure thunderstorms in his own bedroom, and just about anything you can think of. He is also lonely, living in a family that deals with his issues by condemning his abilities, keeping it a secret, and alienating him from the world. His only outlet in controlling his magic, and the emotions that fuel it, is through his piano and music. Then, you have Jared - shy, but with an open heart that, for some unexplained reason, allows him to connect with Jensen while everyone looks the other way in unexplained fear.
Though the story introduces both boys separately as infants and children, it really begins to take root when Jared is 13 and Jensen is 17 years old. At this point, Jensen is a piano tutor and Jared is his first and only student. And if one believes in Fate, then that very person could say it was Fate itself that brought these two boys together, weaving their lives in unpredictable ways over the course of 10 years (whether the boys knew it or not).
DOT is not an easy ready (not fluff at all!). What I find so attractive about this relationship dynamic, is how well the gay-for-you theme was implemented. It seems like many GFY stories tend to start with a physical attraction or lust that leads to an emotional attachment (or a very shallow emotional attachment that leads to strong physical lust). In this case, I felt Jared and Jensen were soul mates, requiring the emotional support of one another, first and foremost. It wasn't what one did to the other, but what one was missing when apart. It was the need to have the other there in order for the world to just make sense. It was such a breeze of fresh air within this category of M/M fiction. Other things that I liked about DOT: a nice set of supporting characters that did not distract from the MCs, good proofreading (always a plus with free fiction; there were some mistakes, but not distracting overall) and a HEA that was long deserved.
Some of the things I didn't like:
1) The story did feel overly long. While I like long stories, I couldn't help but feel that there were scenes that could have be excluded and still keep the story just as enticing.
2) The problems with introverted MCs - they think. A LOT. So if you are one of those readers that hate to read the ramblings of characters throughout the story, then this may not be for you. As a reference, anyone who has read Bear, Otter and the Kid by TJ Klune knows how Bear is a soup of mental rambling - I would say the amount of internal dialogue is similar to Bear, though less chaotic. :) As much as I love some of the internal yacking, it felt a little much at times.
3) Jared was a little too dense for my liking. It seems like most of the problems, or initial shocks, could have been avoided if his skull wasn't so thick. His constant use of Oh God! and Jesus! along with his uselessness at times (due to circumstances) got kind of grating at times.
4) And there were also some unexplained phenomenon. To be as vague as possible, this mostly includes how people's interaction with Jensen changes from Part 1 to Part 2 of the story. It never really gave a clear explanation as why. And a couple other things, but that's about it.
So there's a lot to this book: magic, music, psychological trauma, love, fear, heartache, and so much more. Not everything is sunshine and rainbows here - I felt my heart clenching and tears brimming at many points while reading. But over all, this story was what I needed.
The Doors of Time hits all the right notes, resounding a song that expresses magic of the strongest kind: love. ebook Beautiful. Another great J2 fanfic, I cried my eyes out in parts, and melted into a puddle of goo at others. So well-written, and I've got several more of the author's stories lined up to read. 5 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟 from me. ebook
