Diary of an SM Romance By Dollie Llama
Diary of an S&M Romance is the true story of a young widow reclaiming her life in a red-hot world of kinky sex. She's a feminist doing things that many feminists would consider beastly, and loving every second of it. In Diary of an S&M Romance, Dollie Llama explores the complex connections between romantic sweetness and furious, nasty sex. Part introspective journey of discovery, part tender love story. Part manifesto of empowerment, part dirty dirty book. She met her owner on Bondage.com, and now they just can't stop touching each other in special places, and in special ways. Their relationship is one of mutual respect, intellectual stimulation, and filthy brutal lovemaking. Dollie is her owner's submissive, yielding to his every wish, no matter how depraved. In the bedroom and out, she exists only to serve him. She's Daddy's dress-up dolly use-me girl. And she loves it. Website: www.smdiary.com Dollie Llama's angelic memoir sets her oh-so-devilish audience on fire. See you in Hell! --Charles Gatewood, erotic photojournalist One of the most insightful forays into the workings of the submissive mind. A must read for anybody even slightly interested in Dominance/submission and BDSM. --BaadMaster (Head writer for Bondage.com, host of the BaadMaster's Dungeon talk show on KSEXradio.com) This loving and positive portrayal of a submissive, by a submissive, should be read by Dom/mes to give a greater understanding of those they play with...and by submissives to learn that they aren't alone and shouldn't be ashamed of their consensual lifestyle. Kudos to Dollie for such openness and courage. --Mistress Genevieve (Lifestyle/professional Dominatrix, Sex Therapist with The Dr. Susan Block Institute) Diary of an SM Romance
An HONEST look inside a S&M romance. 232 Urgh! This ‘memoir’ has no redeeming features. An actual diary would have been more interesting. This is about 90% emails back and forth between Dollie & her lover.
She starts off with an attempt to explain why she likes her kink. It’s not written as a story so it’s pretty dry – just telling, no showing so it reads like a lecture or essay.
Before we’ve met him she is pouring out accolades of how amazing he is in every way. Obviously she is head over heels but since it’s all telling, no showing and we haven’t met him it reads as boasting which is not a good way for the reader to get to know and like him (or her). It’s hard to read.
Hundreds of emails which are mainly extremely repetitive word vomit of love and lust. It’s having a couple smooching and being cutesy lovey-dovey in front of you for hours on end. Plus it’s so braggy about how wonderful and in love they are, and how super-orgasmic she is. Worse, as a reader I have not been drawn in to care about this couple – this is not the climax of Romance novel where the heroine finally finds love – so it’s all empty fluff with no story. Worst of all, it just goes on and on and on.
I found myself hoping that it would all go horribly wrong so that there would be a point to this collection of emails. If there’s no conflict there’s no story. It doesn’t matter that it’s a memoir or real – there’s no point writing it if there’s no real story.
Eventually he did have a big tantrum via several escalating emails because of her reluctance to him inviting younger, hotter women into their bed. His reaction was manipulative and threatening. He blamed nicotine withdrawal and she responded with pages of grovelling apologies for bothering him, taking all the blame. “There’s no excuse, i was wrong to question You, or resist You.” He forgives her, and it’s back to gag-inducing ‘lovey’ drivel.
I only skimmed much of the second half as it was the most pointless, boring, sickening, badly written hodge-podge I’ve ever picked up. 232
As the audacious Dollie puts it, “I’m sure some people will wonder why a woman who has her life together and has relatively healthy self-esteem could want her lover to dominate her, whip her on the ass until he leaves welts, and call her “Daddy’s dirty little cum toilet.” “Well, I do. And I love it.”
Diary of S &M Romance is engaging, kinky, riveting and a principle journal to a consensual BDSM lifestyle. It is a factual account of a sexually exploratory couple with an extreme attraction for the BDSM acts. The author and her “Master” are known through their user names: - ‘Dollie Llama’ and ‘ThornDaddy’(sounds very corny, but apt) during all the sequential events.
Dollie a paralegal and firm feminist was always intrigued by the sexual world of pain and pleasure. With the culmination of her masturbatory acts at a mere age of 7, she developed a liking for the newly found orgasm. Over the years, her desire for kink and feral sexual acts augmented. Her ex-husband left her sexually dissatisfied; therefore when widowed at the age of 40 she decided to reclaim her sexual liberation and logged on to Bondage.com- a site for BDSM lovers. Here she found her sexual mate ‘ThornDaddy’, who agreed to be her “Dom”. From here onwards Dollie shares all the sexual exploration and various acts of power that dominated their sexual life amid a deep romance being cultivated between the two. The entire Master and Slave equation had indications of romantic endeavors, giving a soft touch to several fierce sexual sessions. Dollie Llama and ThornDaddy are now an ecstatically married couple, living in Southern California. They do a free weekly BDSM PodCast called Submission and Coffee.
Not once did I cringe or sullied while reading this book. Dollie is a strong and independent woman who has a solid voice in the outer world. The fact that she chooses to be a slave in her sexual role-plays is entirely her preference and should not be judged. It is an honest account of two individuals who are romantically wrapped up, yet explore the bondage and discipline lifestyle with utter honesty and sheer madness.
232 An honest look into a real relationship between a Husband and wife living as a Master/slave couple in the early stages of their relationship. Equals in intellect and personality, but Master/slave in all other aspects, ThornDaddy and Dollie Llama paint a realistic picture of the struggle to fit D/s into everyday life. Dollie is a strong woman, leaving no doubt that feminism and slavery CAN go hand in hand, if the mindset is right. The romance in the title is right, since the two of them can be sweet, if not overly so, but their love for one another is evident in every email exchange which makes up the majority of the book. Terms that a beginner may not understand are explained perfectly and succinctly by Dollie, making this book a must-own for anyone wanting to explore their submissive side, or for Dominants wanting to understand the power that they hold. 232 I had to fight my way through to finish this diary of a SoCal couple and their SM relationship. As a diary of sorts, there is a lot of doting and repetitive pet name love-mush that drove me insane. Yes, I realize that this is romance but it made me irritated to the point where I had to walk away on several occasions. Some things are meant to be kept in the bedroom: not sex, but cutesy couple baby talk.
The dynamics of the Master/slave relationship were mildly interesting, but the couples kink wasn't to my taste nor were their references to God. I respect their relationship and beliefs, but I didn't need my brain to be saturated with the fluffier elements of it.
The book does have okay points, but for me it was mostly overshadowed by sap thinly disguised as sensuality. The only thing I found titillating was the cover.
All in all, not sexy.
Curious? This book is available via creative commons at podiobooks.com 232 If you'd like to know what I thought of this book, please contact me directly and I'd be happy to discuss it with you.
All the best,
- TB 232 Tried to read this a few years ago. For research purposes and I was curious in S&M. To peek into the lifestyle and what goes on between couples behind closed doors; and S&M clubs, venues. I was more intrigued by the S&M 101 book I'd purchased before this. I think I only made it past a few chapters. I was disgusted. I mean if you're into S&M its probably right up your alley. Did not like this book at all. A waste of time and money. 232
